Sunday, July 13, 2008 @ 12:37 AM

i cant figure out who's right who's wrong. but who cares. everything's over. whats said is said. whats done is dont.

finding games for my phone. :D
so that at least i have some entertainment tmr. & i'll just be so engross in my game that i'll not even hear a single thing about what they say. whether its good or bad, i am so not interested. just last week they were like saying whos better, me or my brother. the obvious answer came in. of course it wasnt me. she was practically praising my brother on & on & on & on. even though i dont care, she didnt have to praise him infront of me. whats worse is she actually compare me & my brother. i was good enough not to say anything & even smiled.
he's smarter, he's better, he's older & he's a guy. so what if i dont have one of those? i'm still have alittle of your blood in me. its still a fact that i am still one of you.

so sorry about the frequent rantings. i dont know why i just feel like going on & on about the rantings today. it seemed like i can rant all the way. it seemed to be never ending you know. like for the past few year's rants all coming out at once. & after ranting i feel so much better. so having a blog does help. you can treat it like a friend pour all your thoughts to it then you'll feel alot better. i dont care whether anyone sees this. but at least i felt better. :D

only today, my father knew that i had a double face thing.
infront of family, i am the super quiet one.
infront of friends, can say i am one of the noisy ones.
you can see the difference when i am at home and in school. at home, or can say my grandmother's house. i seem like a totally different person. & you'll never thought i could be someone so hyper. :D but i still like the me in school. i feel so much more myself.
*sighs* its not that i dont wanna be the same. its somehow at home i think its useless to be so hyper. like anyone ever cares. :/ might as well save the energy for school. :D
lol, enough for today. :D
shall blog tmr about my oh-so-awesome day at my nephew's first month. -.- its a different one from last week. but i bet it will again rantings. xD
goooodbye humans.
i am so supposed to sleep now. cause i still have tution tmr morning.
tution rocks okay? cause its like when you cant understand school tution helps. :D