Sunday, September 14, 2008 @ 3:52 PM

CAN I?
-can i not face reality?
-can i just slack my way through days,weeks,months, years and exams.
-can i just not give a damn about my future.
-can i do everything i want.
-can i not do what people tell me to
-can i just slap you & ask you to shutup?
can i can i can i?
i dont feel like bothering about anything. dont wanna know/think whats gonna happen to me in future. in fact, i just dont wanna admit the fact that there's still along way to go.
everybody's pushing responsibility. they thought they thought they thought.
you thought, i think then who do?
a carefree life? who's going through a carefree life, nobody. can anybody be carefree? no. in fact its just so impossible. almost everyone i know is going through all that stupid stress & i guess the world has only about 0.0000000000000000000001% of humans going through a carefree life.
if the world's really coming to an end when i'm 22.
then i can say goodbye to studies. but too bad, i cant predict the future.
but i just cant imagine the scene where everybody just faints & dies.
i dont wanna just end things likedat, there's still plenty of things i've yet to try & just waiting for time to come.

dont read if you dont want, i'm not pointing a knife at you.
just shutup & admit you're dying to be one, stop acting innocent cause everybody knows what you're thinking.
no particular person i'm directing this at.
& lastly nobody's perfect. stop boasting about things you can do while i cant.
everybody's made different. we've different parents, different genes.
if i can do what you can do, then whats the point of living in this world where everybody can do anything? then everybody will be perfect. everyone will look the same, dress the same, do things the same.
i know i'm not as talented as all of you are, do you think i want it? if we can change our talents before being brought out to this ridiculous world, who wouldnt? everybody wants to be perfect, & i'm not different from anyone with 2 eyes, 1 nose, 2 ears & 1 mouth.
so what if you're the richest person on earth?
so what if you're drop dead sexy?
so what if you're the world's prettiest/handsome person?
money cant buy happiness, looks cant bring joy. dont judge a person by its cover, whats important is the inside. a fresh looking apple maybe rotten in the inside. while a most rotten apple you've ever seen is one of the freshest apple of all.
maybe before judging people, you might want to do some soul searching. think about it, you might be worser than the other person.

bye.
ps: i'm not having moodswings. just wanna voice them out.